Thursday, October 14, 2010

Midterms, Reading and more Reading

Holy Crap! Midterms were killer. Let's just say that I finally have time to breath, but not exactly. I had 3 midterms all in the space of a few days, somehow the middle of the semester snuck up on me, there are only about 7 weeks left in this semester, which seems crazy to me, mainly because I have so much left to do! I have a research paper in 3 classes, two of which I haven't even started the research for and I have a book review for another class. My philosophy class always keeps me writing, our exam is due Tuesday but thankfully I am pretty much done, except for editing!

I've been thinking about the impending is going to be here sooner than I think. This semester is almost over and all I will have left is 4 classes, which seems like a breeze compared to this semester. I am excited though because I think I finally narrowed in on what I want to study for grad school, which takes a load off my back. There is a professor at my school that is doing exactly what I want to do and he is specializing in what I want to study, so I took the time to pick his brain!!! It was a great meeting and as it turns out, I will probably be his research assistant for the spring semester. Yeah it is an additional class but all you really do is research and probably write a paper. It will give me great experience for grad school!

I have decided though, that for now I am planning on taking a year off before I start grad school, mainly because I am 75% sure that I am going out of state. I have a particular school in mind and I just have to get everything together....let's just say I haven't exactly been preparing for the GRE...not even a little bit...not even at all!!! I have procrastinated that for AS LONG AS POSSIBLE!!! It will probably bite me in the rear but I am super burnt out, I think taking a break will be good for me, give me time to think and gather my thought!!!

Not much has really been happening besides school, except my sabbatical from facebook, let's just say that I get SOOOOOO much more work done when I do not log on. I did have to get on today because it is the birthday and like 30 people wrote on my wall and I have to be gracious and thank them for the birthday wishes!! It's weird to be my age, I feel worlds apart from other people I will be graduating with, in more ways than just age. I have been so focused on school that everything else has kind of faded away into the background. I am looking forward to some much needed time off, as long as I can find a job!!!!

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

It all hit the fan...and broke it...

To say that life has been crazy would be putting it mildly. So much has happened over the course of the past few weeks and school work has piled up!!! So a couple of weeks ago we had a tragedy in the bro's dog got hit by a car and she did not make it! It was terrible! Then the next day I was in a car accident. Some 17 year old ran a red light and took the front of my car with him. Thankfully no one was seriously injured but dealing with insurance companies have been a real pain in the you know can suddenly get way out of hand sometimes!

On top of all that I am sailing into midterms next week and presentations...I want to graduate SO badly right now that I cannot put it into words. One cool thing that did finally happen was petitioning to graduate about 3 weeks ago! I should be hearing back really soon about whether or not I will have made the cut and filled all the requirements to get the heck out of here.

The scary thing about actually graduating is the fact that you are actually freaking graduating...and you just sit there wondering what the heck you going to do with the rest of your life. Thankfully I have a plan...graduate school! YES! Not! It is a necessary evil for me. I want to be a professor one day (really make the big bucks...) Then one day I'll get my good 'ol Ph.D, what fun! It's the scariest and most exhilarating feeling for a student. The pressures do not end with finals or midterms, it's about finding a job and a good one at that! I have plans but those are always subject to change and I haven't quite put my finger on what I should be doing right now and it leaves me with no motivation to finish what I have started. Don't get me wrong, I love what I am studying very much and I have a plan but there is this nagging feeling that there is something that I need to do that I have just not figured out yet...and it is really starting to make me angry. I know I will figure it out eventually....just after a few thermonuclear meltdowns...

In the meantime, life goes on and we do the best we can. Senioritis is getting to me more this month than ever before between my personal issues and all the school work that goes undone. It never ends, especially when you have 5 classes..there is more than enough homework to go around....yippee!!!!

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Burning the Candle at Both Ends...

All I have to say is...thank goodness for Labor Day!!! It was the break that I desperately needed...for reals. I spent all day Sunday reading a book that had nothing to do with history or any of my was BEYOND nice. I went to see my family and it was so worth it. I wish they lived somewhere a bit more exciting that Mississippi, like Fiji, or something like that...but alas, getting out of the state for a while was a huge help.

So as I was reading one of the assigned readings for one of my history classes and it was quite interesting. It is Chinese Historiography (for those who may not know, historiography means...the examination and critical writing of history) and we read about Empress Dowager...she was straight up crazy, and had a lot of people killed because she was power hungry...and trust me, that is putting it mildly. As I was reading it, I was highly entertained by some of the things she had done..and other things she done were more horrifying, like killing a bunch of people. At least it was more interesting than some of the things that I have read. I know reading is a major part of my field of study but somethings are just plain old boring. When I am a professor, writing fantastic books and making tons of money off book royalties, I will at least make it more interesting. Most people think that it is easy to write about history but I am here to tell you that I am not.

So to make this blog a bit more stimulating I am going to find something about college to talk, or complain about. Today, it just happens to be parking. Why to people lose all their common sense when coming into, or leaving a parking deck. It boggles the mind people, boggles the mind. Today this poor woman was trying to back out of her parking spot and someone was insistent on getting that spot but she pulled up in such a way that the woman backing out could not, or was too scared to pull out. It was seriously a 5 minute stand off and finally the woman trying to take the spot had to give up. The deck that I park in is just waaaaay to small for the amount of students trying to park there everyday. So be warned, always show up early because you cannot count on pulling into a spot easily. It is kind of like being in a safari, the spots are the prey and we are the predators...and people will play dirty...

That is my complaint today...I am looking forward to being done with school and the crazy parking situation.

Monday, August 30, 2010

BEST day on campus EVER

So, if I ever complain that school is boring, please remind me of this post. So this weekend I did not get as much homework done as I needed to and I was dreading going to class today. My STUPID alarm is about to die, I have been so exhausted lately and my alarm is just not cutting it anymore. So I set it to go off at 5:45am to get a shower and get ready for class at 8am, and when it went off I quickly decided that that was WAY to early to wake up. I reset my alarm for 6:30am and I would just take a really quick shower. Well, somehow my alarm just got all jacked up. I rolled over and looked at my alarm clock and it said that the time was 7:31am and I freaked. I looked at my cell phone and thankfully it said 6:50, so I rushed to the shower and got ready. After running to the bank I barely made it to my American Revolution class. I was DREADING this class because it was discussion day and I hadn't done the reading AND I remembered that I had a map quiz at 11am. Super fun!!!

I made it through my first two classes and started my 3rd class at 11am. We got started and did our quiz, naturally I made a 100, mainly because I am awesome and I am better at memorizing things. So 30 minutes into our class some student comes pounding on the door and said "did you know you have to evacuate the building?" and naturally we had no idea, so in a split second our professor went into protective mode and told us to grab our stuff and get out now! We all scrambled out and NO ONE would tell us what was going on. After about 30 minutes of standing outside they told us that the building would not be opened up again for a couple of hours. We finally found out that some old Civil War Era ammunition had been gifted to the Social Science building and someone had (magically it seems) discovered that the ammunition was still live. Needless to say most people just left, like myself.

So yeah, if I ever say that being on campus is boring just remind me of this day. It was just so funny, everyone thought that it was just a drill because no one was telling us anything. We figured if it was a gunmen then they wouldn't be sending us out into the open...hopefully not. I kept saying that if it was legit then helicopters would be flying around....well 20 minutes after being outside the helicopters finally showed up! As exciting as it was, hopefully this will not be that regular occurrence!!

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Decisions, Decisions, Decisions

So I was in class today, minding my own business and actually paying attention to the lecture when all of a sudden the wheels in my brains started turning. Now I have been talking a lot about having senioritis and wanting to be done with school, and mind you that is true, but I have also come to love learning. It is kind of addicting to me, I just love learning new things and really applying myself. I never thought I would say this but I LOVE studying history! Typically I am never excited at 8am in the morning but every Monday and Wednesday I look forward to my American Revolution class, and trust me, it is not because there are any hott guys in is because I love to learn.

Now don't be fooled. I freaking have senioritis...I am ready to take the next step in my academic career. I had my plans all set, at least somewhat set at best, and I had finally picked out a school...which took the longest time to decide, but once I did I wasn't going to back down. I toil over my decisions, but once I set my course I ruthlessly follow it. That has been the case with history. I have pushed myself harder during the last year than I have at any other time in my life. I have managed to pull my GPA up from a 3.19 to a 3.4 in just three semester, and that my friend is hard freaking work. I demand a lot of myself and truth be told I do get burned out, easily, but deep down I enjoy the work and at the end of the day I know that I have earned every single grade that I have been given.

Now back to my class, it was my geography class. I have always had a passion for traveling and a desire to go everywhere humanly possible, and I mean everywhere...even one of those cruises to the Antarctica. So when we had a guest lecturer come to talk about the southern portion of South America I wondered why the heck I never considered Geography for a major...everything else seemed to cross my mind, but not that. I know you can see where this is going...I am considering extended for a year and earning my B.A. in Geography. It would only add around 11 classes, which I could take over the course of 3 semesters, Summer 2011, Fall 2011 and Spring 2012. It would only delay graduation for one year, which really isn't that bad...I talked to my adviser and he said that it was really up to me and that if it was not required for grad school then it is something that he would not consider. It is not really required for the program that I want to do but I think it would make me more knowledgeable going into grad school which would make me a more well rounded student. He did say though that if I would never have to opportunity to do it again then it would be worth it. Once I am done with undergrad, I am done and there is no going back. I think this would also be a good way to help my chances at finding a job when I graduate...which is never a bad thing.

See, these are the things that you have to think about as a senior...the things that you cannot put off. This is the rest of your life that you are thinking about...whatever you can do to help yourself advance is in your own best interest to do. It's a lot to think about and this stuff is everything that a person with senioritis does NOT want to think about...which makes me wonder, why am I thinking about it at all...

On that note, I think I will end this post...I am way too tired to think right now!

Monday, August 23, 2010

I'm baaaaaaack

So week one of classes are officially over and all I can think is....when is gradation? For real is going to be a tough semester, I knew that with 5 classes it was bound to happen. The only thing that keeps me going most of the time is the fact that I will be done in two semesters. Most of my classes are awesome, like my American Revolution class and Geography of Latin America and the Caribbean. I sound so nerdy but the classes are pretty cool. My Historiographical Debates class is going to be tough, we are talking about how people have written history and how they are still writing it. We have started off with Herodotus and Thucydides, always fun!!

The long list of things that I have to do is just daunting. I have 3 papers to write, 3 outside class assignments for my geography class and midterms, finals, exams, exams, exams. This semester is everything a senior year should be, freaking busy. The summer wasn't too bad, I made 3 A's and a B which boosted my GPA to 3.4 which is so close to my goal of 3.5, Cum Laude. For real, I want to graduate Cum Laude so freaking bad, for reasons that I am not even really sure of myself. I have no idea why I am pushing myself this hard. I hope that it is worth it, sometimes I do not think it is. I think mostly we stay is school because they keep telling us to stay in school and wait for the economy to get stronger but I am genuinely pessimistic when it comes to the economy here in the US.

You know what else makes me pessimistic? Freshmen. Seriously, Freshmen. I have this precious freshman who sits next to me in my Philosophy class, who has no idea what is going on. She is a nice enough girl and is optimistic about her college career but she has no idea what is going on and what college is actually about. The only redeeming quality about freshmen is when they get lost and are trying to figure their way around the campus. I will always maintain who funny it is to see freshmen get so lost that they look all confused. Seriously, so funny!!

Well speaking of school I should get to work on some reading. I finally have Internet at my apartment so I will be able to update more!!

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Running on Fumes

So it's been a while....I actually stopped procrastinating...mostly because there was no other option, everything was due at the same time. Last week I had a preliminary draft of my paper due and a philosophy test, it was a joyous time...There is cause for celebration, today is the LAST DAY of my dreaded philosophy course. Besides one last quiz all I have left do to is take my finals.

So all in all this has been a crazy summer filled with sleepless nights of homework and reading. Everyone said I was crazy for taking four classes and I have to say that they were right! Of course no semester would be complete without one bout of illness that threatens to destroy. That happened Monday and Tuesday. It all started Monday morning with really bad stomach cramps, which continued until Tuesday night. Let's just say, it was not fun. I have been living off of one meal a day for the past three days and I have not really been able to eat anything else besides breakfast or lunch. My appetite was gone!

Anyways, that is neither here nor there. With the impending end of the semester there will no doubt be a break in writing on the good 'ol blog, it will be a dry three weeks. All I will be doing is going to work and relaxing as much as possible! This break will hopefully be less stressful than the break in between spring and summer, when I seriously just thought about not coming back to school. I think everyone questions leaving but if you can make it past you sophomore year then you will more than likely graduate. It is hard to believe that in two semesters I will be finished!!

For now I must prepare for my last philosophy class... I am more excited than I can put into words...for real!!

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

A weekend well wasted...

So it's two weeks until the end of the think that would be motivation enough to get things done, not so much. This past weekend was fourth of July weekend so I had a three day weekend! I was so excited that I must have forgotten to study and/or read anything for the coming week. Now I know what you are are thinking, "why didn't you study?" and my answer would be so obvious...simply because I did not feel like it. Honesty is always the best policy. So now I can honestly say that I regret that decision, I have a ten page paper to start, a philosophy test to study for and a mountain of reading to do. Fail. I did manage to get some reading done at work today, but not nearly enough. I have to get cracking on this history paper. I have no desire to research it and even less desire to work on it but I have a preliminary draft due on Monday so I have to at least write something.

Senioritis is killing me, but there is a light at the end of the tunnel, graduation is coming. It really is, I will petition to graduate in just a few months, it is weird but totally awesome. I was hoping to get to a 3.5 GPA before I graduated but I am just not sure that is going to happen, I pretty much need to make straight A's for the next two semesters and mostly A's this summer. I really have to bust my butt in order to reach that goal. I am going to keep trying, so we'll see what happens!

Meanwhile, these next two weeks will be busier than ever because my personal life is just as busy, especially things at church. It is a constant struggle to keep all the balls you are juggling in the air. That's what people never prepare you for in high school. It is constant battle of compartmentalizing your entire life. You can never focus on one thing at a time because there is always the "white noise" of other things going on in your life. I find myself struggling with this right now. I like to think that I can multitask and focus on a lot of things at one time, when in reality I cannot, school runs my life. When I am not at school I am thinking, talking or planning for school. That is one thing that I will not miss.

I am trying to figure out what I am going to do when I graduate in just a few months. It seems so far away but I know that it is looming in the background. It is a BIG, FAT, DREADFUL question mark hovering in the background, constantly begging the question, "What are you going to do next?" I do not have an answer, and that's the scariest thing about being a senior. You think it would be something that motivates you at all times, but mostly it just scares the hell out of you. For now I guess I will go back to my unread philosophy essays. Boo.

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Midterms, Scanning and Philosophy...

It has been midterm week. So basically, it has been hell on earth. I had a midterm yesterday and one again today...just a couple of hours ago actually. My brain literally hurt when I was finished. Midterms suck. There is no other way to describe them, but it does mean that the semester is half way over. My midterms started last week and thankfully they are over now but there is so much to do in the last half of the semester. One test, four finals, ten page paper, three quizzes and two more summaries. If that is not a to do list, I do not know what is. College can be so frustrating and really difficult. Graduating should be a much bigger deal than what people make it out to be. Just getting through your senior year alone should earn you some kind of award. Straight Up! Sometimes motivation is impossible to find.

On the other hand, as if my life is not crazy enough as it is, work has to been insane right now. One of the professors is going on a study abroad trip to Italy. It is an A-mazing trip, hello 5 weeks in Tuscany can NEVER, EVER be terrible. So two days before he leaves (yesterday) he decides to drop off NINE books that need to be scanned to him. The ENTIRE book. Okay look, I know what you are thinking, it is not that hard but when you stare at that green bar for two hours you become some kind of zombie. For all that scanning, I should be able to go to Italy!

Meanwhile, in the land of sucks, that's what. UGH. FOUR more LONG weeks!!! I will never like this class, it is so painful!! I refuse to be alone in this struggle so I feel the need to bring it up with every blog. Thankfully we have Monday the 5th off, gotta love federal holidays!!! I will probably throw some kind of party when this is over. We finally finished James and now we are on to Pierce, which is coincidentally is pronounced like purse, and if Emerson and James were not bad enough...this crap is totally wack....I pretty much hate every second of this class. No offense to the teacher, but this class is just dumb.

This is my advice to all you soon to be some of your general ed courses for your senior year that way you do not have to take stupid classes like this!!

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Procastination is....

...awful. It is a seniors best friend. It keeps you company as you avoid doing anything the resembles homework or writing papers. I had a midterm that counts for a serious portion of my grade and of course I leave it until the last minute. Why is it that every year, the college new year (August 1st) at least, I promise to not procrastinate. Please. Like that is EVER going to happen. A senior must accept this inevitable way of life. Facebook doesn't help either.

I wish I knew what it was like not to procrastinate...but I will probably never get there...because of procrastination. Don't let the irony be lost on you. Please.

I am in full on midterm mode this weekend though because I have two more next week and I have to begin writing my paper...blah, blah, blah. I am so burnt out. That is the God's honest truth. Most days it is difficult to will myself out of bed for class. Like yesterday, I was supposed to meet my "reading group" before my 8am class...we were meeting at 7:30AM. I took the time to wake up...late, but that is neither here nor there, and two other people show up and we don't talk about the reading. Then it didn't really matter because we did not even discuss our chapter. I almost turned into Jeremy from Top Gear and yelled at everyone. So close.

I skipped half of my 2pm class in order to write my midterm...should have skipped the rest of it because we talked about bibliographies and how to annotate them. boring, boring, boring. The only redeeming thing in the class was the incredibly hot but young looking guy that sat next to me. For real. Hottness. He usually sits across from me in class, he is the kind of hot that you have to be careful not to look at for long periods of time in case he feels you staring at him. He seems really young though, but nice to look at.

I wish the rest of my classes had hott guys in them, it would make the class all the more interesting. Unlike my American Philosophy class which is extremely boring. seriously, we are talking about pragmatists and epistemology....zzzzzz......zzzz....z.z.z.z ugh, this class is painful. I would take a C just to be done with it. This semester is definitely not going to do anything for my GPA. In the mean time I will go back to facebook...

Monday, June 7, 2010

Archives, Emerson and Reason #1 for senioritis

Last week we learned all about the archives...apparently they are like onions and have multiple layers, who knew? Not me, that is for sure. Immediately I thought of Shrek and subsequently stopped paying attention to the archivist at the library. I have to write this ten page paper and all of my sources have to come from the archives...that should be enjoyable. My teacher hasn't exactly been forthcoming when he talks about this paper and generally I am confused about what I am supposed to do...which is no bueno considering that I have to have all my sources by the end of the month.

It's as if every teacher is convinced that whatever class they are teaching is the only class you are taking. What the heck is up with that? The way my teacher said "it's only ten pages" made me want to deck him...ten pages is and always will be a big deal. I think, despite his lack of guidance, I have settled on talking about colonial Georgia, mainly because it is a short history, since it was the last colony and was kind of thrown together last minute.

In my American Philosophy class we have been discussing Ralph Waldo Emerson. Boo. Boo. Boo. Emerson was a tool. I could go on but I would rather not. Everything that man said makes no sense. It is so hard to pay attention in this class and the attention span of a senior is short enough already, add Emerson and you're seriously in trouble. Let's just say that I will be glad when we are done with this section. This class is going to seriously damage my GPA.

I have figured out the number ONE reason for senioritis. The financial aid department. I am completely serious. When I talk to them I lose complete faith in the institution of higher education. Seriously. They are the least helpful department known to man. Kids, remember this, please. I have had trouble with my student loans, mainly I am SO close to graduating and my loans are approaching the maximum undergraduate level, simply meaning, I need to graduate. They are in no rush to help me out, which is a really jerky thing to do.

It should be a great summer.

I have to put a disclaimer on this blog that I forgot to put before:
1. I am not a party animal, do not look for stories of raging parties that normal college seniors might attend.
2. I will never disclose names.
3. I love God and Jesus Christ, it might come up so get over it
4. I will probably not talk about my personal life too much, so this will not be a soap opera.
5. I am a senior, therefore I am jaded to college life.

That being's going to be a great year.

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Me and Senioritis

So...I am in my senior year at college and you always hear about "senioritis" but what is it really??? I am going to spend my last three semesters at college chronicling my senioritis...because I definitely have it.

I guess I should start off by describing my academic history. I am in my last year of studies majoring in American History which may sound boring..but it's not, trust me. I have been attending the same university is suburban Atlanta for the past three years and have now entered the dreaded senior year. I have exactly three semesters of undergrad left before I have to enter the "real world" so I thought I would spend my time writing a blog about my senior year.

So this summer I was ambitious when I registered for 4 classes, all of which are upper division classes. They only last 8 weeks. I figured I could do anything for 8 weeks....I have two morning classes on Tuesday/Thursday and two even classes on Monday/Wednesday with each class lasting about 3 hours...6 hours of class a day, what's not to love???

I have always maintained one cardinal rule with college. I hold this rule in the highest regard and it is something that I swore to never, ever, under any circumstances disobey...yet, in this my senior year I will break it not once, but twice. The 8am class. It is never okay to start class at 8am. EVER. Maybe this is the start of senioritis? You are so desperate to get the year over with that you break the are at the mercy of the department and when they offer classes, and that is a no win situation for a senior. There is one class that you really want to take but there is only one section offered, every other leap year on odd year semesters, and for once the college gods have taken pity on your soul...the class is being 8am. The college gods mock you.

Thus begins the journey to graduation day, for one of the most expensive pieces of paper you will ever buy! Let the fun begin!!!